January 5, 2011

I’ve regretted several times during the past few weeks that I’m not “fully retired”. Today, as I returned to the BBBS office after a two week holiday, I realized just how isolating being retired right now would be. Being a part of the bustle and chatter in the office was not only refreshing, but energizing, as well.

I remember Jesus’s teaching “And which of you, if your child asked for bread, would you give him a stone. Your heavenly Father knows what you need before you even ask.”

I'm so thankful for my job at Big Brothers Big Sisters. God knew that I needed to be with people, even when I had little desire to be. He knew I needed the stimulation of work, when I thought I needed leisure.

I’m learning that my faith grows as I learn, not only to trust and obey, but when I learn to truly accept and embrace what He sends my way. God truly is my Provider, my Protector, and my Defender.

By the time I came home this afternoon, I was ready for quiet…..and reading…..and trying my hand at journaling once again.

Right now I’m sitting in front of our little fireplace with its flames flickering in the shadows of the room. It’s drizzling outside our windows. Sophie sits at my feet. Water is boiling in anticipation of becoming a cup of tea. My Jan Karon novel awaits me. Bliss….and gratitude.